So senior year is coming to an end and it's strange to say that I don't feel anything towards it. Maybe it just hasn't hit me yet or maybe i'm just that much of a stoic. Whatever it is, it's weird. I should be upset. I should be upset knowing that there are going to be some people that I'm never going to see again, hear from again, awkwardly glance at again. It's a sad idea and perhaps later on in life i'll look back and feel that biting nostaligia...but not now. No, not now.

I have this weird and harsh idea that God puts certain people in our lives for a reason and that whether they stay or not is up to Him. Of course we should all try to at least keep in touch if only with our acquaintances but if the other end doesn't pick up, there's not much that the dialing person can do.

I'm going to miss a lot of people. I wish I could embrace these people and never let go, telling them that everything's going to be alright, that the future ahead of them is going to be as bright as the sun.....but I don't know. Plus, I wouldn't want for them to feel the need to file a restraining order against me.

So it's time to go. There's only pushing forward now...

These past few weeks have been the most incredible few weeks that I've had in the longest time.

God has taught me so much!!! and I wish I wrote it all down :(

Man. I don't want to live without You God. I know that some times I push you away. I know that sometimes I choose to run away voluntarily but It's only because I'm stupid. God, You're incredible and there is no possible way that my faith in You can be shaken. Not now. Not ever.

Amen.